It's not easy. It won't be easy.

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Dear Heart,

Do not beat.

Just stay.

Just be there.

Don't move.

Hold on.

Just hold on as long as you can

And please,

Don't fall.

May Allah bless me through His mercy. Amin.

(One and Only- Adele)

You've been on my mind I grow fonder every day

Lose myself in time thinking of your face

God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go

You're the only want I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I have been here before

Every feeling every word, I've imagined at all

You'll never know if you never try

To forget your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms

so come on and give me a chance

to prove I'm the one who can walk that mile

until the end starts

If i've been on your mind you hang on every word I say

Lose yourself in time at the mention of my name

Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close

and have you tell me whichever road I choose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared, I have been here before

Every feeling every word, I've imagined at all

You'll never know if you never try

To forget your past and simply mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms

so come on and give me a chance

to prove I'm the one who can walk that mile

until the end starts

I know it ain't easy giving up your heart

I know it ain't easy giving up your heart

Nobody's perfect

(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart )

Trust me I've learned it

Nobody's perfect

Trust me I've learned it

(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart )

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

I Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms

so come on and give me

to prove im the one who can walk that mile

until the end starts

come on and give me

to prove im the one who can walk that mile

until the end starts

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I dare you.

Surah Ar- Rahman (55:13)

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"You knock, He opens. 

You attend, He welcomes. 

You ask, He gives. 

You sin, He tests.

You repent,  He forgives. 

You cry, He listens. 

Everything you do is about you and everything He does is about you. 

So which of Allah's favours would you deny "?

I wonder at loneliness, how long it will be. 

I wonder how long this silence remains.

I wonder what will happen to me if I fall.

I wonder, e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g

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I wait and I wonder. 

But what the mistake that I've done ?

See what happen in my meja study right now ! Really messy kan ? Actually I always try my best tau to study from beginning of the session *konon-kononnya lah * but ends up with last minute jugak setiap every semester. Itu baru lah student betul betul kan?  -_-

Last-minute-study is not very helpful sometimes because we have to memorize everything, understand lagi about every topics/chapters so if you study at last minute, you're not being able to memorize and understand about everything. You can memorize but in a very short moment je. The situasion completely reversed when you sit on the exam. Trust me. Masa tu lah baru macam " eh, aku baca topic ni, kenapa tak ingat ni ?aku baca ni. baca ni. *ulang banyak kali *K." *hentuk kepala atas meja* hey ask yourself lah kan, siapa suruh study last minute hihi. But I always believe tau selagi tak sampai masa, hari nak exam tu, selagi tu saya ada masa nak study. My mom selalu cakap " usaha usaha usaha. If Allah nak bagi, Dia bagi. If tak, usaha lagi, nanti Allah bagi ". Percaya Dia.

I got quiz tonight and my final exam begins on this coming Monday. Orang lain tak final lagi, tapi kitorang start dulu coz madam tu ada hal masa minggu exam. Tak apa lah, macam mana pon, study study study. May Allah ease everything. Bismillahitawakkaltu'alallah ! :) 

How much this heart hurt, I just cannot explain. 

Ya Allah, give me strength. Please avoid me from those people who have hurt me . I can't deal with them anymore. 

Keep asking yourself....

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If everyone's pleased you but Allah isn't, What have you gained ?

If Allah is pleased with you and everyone isn't, What have you lost ?

-Islam and life -

I was wondering how can we manage to say so much without saying anything at all ?

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" O Allah, I seek forgiveness for every sin I committed, about which, of course, You know inside and out, from the beginning to the end of my life, whether committed deliberately or intentionally, few or many, abstruse or manifest, old or new, secretly carried out or openly done: and for whatever wrong I have done I turn repentant unto You and beseech you to bless Muhammad and the children of Muhammad and forgive all my unjust acts I did wrong to the people ( because they have right which i have to recognize and fulfill ) but you have full authority to forgive those wrongdoings whenever and howsoever you wish, o the most merciful. 

Understand that, I'm human.

Understand that, I make mistakes.

Understand that, I have heart.

Understand that, I have feelings.

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May Allah ease. Protect me, protect my heart.

Mosyuki Borhan :

" Sesungguhnya

cinta itu amat keparat 

Ditunggu rasanya penat,

Dikejar pastinya tak larat "

" What are you doing tonight? "

"Crying myself to sleep, wondering why I never truly feel loved. You?"

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" Same."

Bismillah.

Ya Allah ya rahman ya rahim ya a'lim ya a'zim ......

" Sesungguhnya Engkau maha mengetahui segalanya. Mengetahui setiap perancangan yang kau tetapkan untuk diriku ini, mengetahui setiap apa yang aku rasa dalam hatiku ini. Kau jagakanlah hatiku ini. Semoga semuanya baik sahaja.Tabahkan dan kuatkan semangatku  dalam menghadapi setiap cabaran liku-liku kehidupan yang telah Engkau tetapkan. Sesungguhnya Engkau tahu apa yang terbaik untuk diriku. Moga aku redha, terima qadha qadar yang telah Engkau tetapkan. Aku percaya. Percaya Engkau adalah sebaik baik perancang.

Jagalah hatiku ini dengan sebaiknya. Kau jauhkan apa yang patut, dekatkan apa yang perlu "

Amin.

I believe in what Mufti Ismail Menk has said :

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When things do not go exactly the way we wanted ,

When we do not achieve what we have tried so hard to achieve

When we feel so let down by others.....

Then always know that for as long as we have faith and trust in the Almighty, He definitely has something better in store for us. He has saved us from a calamity or disaster that would have been in our path or has elevated our status through surrendering to His decree. We are not considered believers until we are pleased with the decision of the Almighty. This will save us from much anxiety and depression. Try your best and leave the rest to Him. Only Him, Allah. 

When we do something bad to ourself  and people around us, do we realize it ? 

When people keep reminding us what is good to do and what is not good to do, what is halal thing and what is haram thing, do we listen to them ?

When we are in trouble, who do you rely on ? Him or him ?

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Whatever situation or condition that we face, we must rely on Him, Allah. Sometimes when something happen, you just can't explain why it has happened, right ? It just unexpected and unpredictable. But you have to understand that life is like a puzzle. You might not see all the pieces but indeed He knows the bigger picture and will give you one piece at a time. Trust Allah and always believe on Him. Just pray, pray and pray to him and ask Him whatever that you want. He will gives to you oneday in the right time insya Allah. 

Du'a, zikir, follow the sunnah and stay connect to quran. From these, we can get close to Him. 

Indeed, He looks at our heart and our deeds ! All the best to all :)

sunset

Dapat peluang tangkap gambar sunset dari tingkap bilik mahallah Nusaibah, alhamdulillah ! Cantik sangat ya Allah. Sekarang ni, saya banyak menghabiskan masa kat bilik. Petang petang wajib buka tingkap bilik sebab nak rasa angin Allah bagi, nak tengok sunset Allah bagi. Ciptaan Allah semua cantik cantik. Hebat sangat kan Dia ?